Tomorrow. Tomorrow I am officially in 3rd year. I will have responsibility for patients. I know I will be supervised, but still, they will be MY patients. I'm both excited and terrified. The learning curve is going to be steep and although I know I am prepared for what lies ahead of me it's hard to feel like I am actually prepared. As of tomorrow, I will be working about 12 hours a day in hospital as part of a team. I can't remember the last time I truly felt like I was part of something greater that really made a difference in peoples' lives. I look forward to experiencing everything that this new life will have to offer, both the beautiful and painful moments.
To my friends and family reading this, you knew this time would come. No matter how busy I get, you still hold an incredibly important place in my life. I wouldn't be here without your love and support. I'm going to need that love and support more than ever. You know I've never been the most confident person but having you all in my life has helped me find muster up enough confidence to move forward. You have helped me regain my footing when I feel like I have slipped and am falling uncontrollably. I am so sorry that I will have to miss important life moments of yours. Parties, weddings, etc. I'm sorry I won't necessarily have the same amount of time to give to you as before. Please understand that I do not value any less our relationship and that if you really need me, I will find a way to be there and make time for you. It may be at some weird hours but I will find a way.
To my colleagues, now we are going to need each other more than ever. We will all be in the trenches together; fighting for our patients, fighting against the negative aspects of the culture in medicine, and growing into the professionals we all want to be someday. I look forward to getting to know so many of you in a greater capacity and learn from you. We are all in this together.
The house is almost clean, the laundry is almost done, all food for the week is almost ready. I stare at my freshly washed white coat, still pristine, white with inexperience. Never in my life have I more looked forward to wearing out a piece of clothing.
To my friends and family reading this, you knew this time would come. No matter how busy I get, you still hold an incredibly important place in my life. I wouldn't be here without your love and support. I'm going to need that love and support more than ever. You know I've never been the most confident person but having you all in my life has helped me find muster up enough confidence to move forward. You have helped me regain my footing when I feel like I have slipped and am falling uncontrollably. I am so sorry that I will have to miss important life moments of yours. Parties, weddings, etc. I'm sorry I won't necessarily have the same amount of time to give to you as before. Please understand that I do not value any less our relationship and that if you really need me, I will find a way to be there and make time for you. It may be at some weird hours but I will find a way.
To my colleagues, now we are going to need each other more than ever. We will all be in the trenches together; fighting for our patients, fighting against the negative aspects of the culture in medicine, and growing into the professionals we all want to be someday. I look forward to getting to know so many of you in a greater capacity and learn from you. We are all in this together.
The house is almost clean, the laundry is almost done, all food for the week is almost ready. I stare at my freshly washed white coat, still pristine, white with inexperience. Never in my life have I more looked forward to wearing out a piece of clothing.
